It feels so good to laugh again. I'm so thankful for good friends. It is lovely to laugh, to feel like laughing. I love to forget for a moment, the way my heart beats to the rhythm of chaos.
This week I felt as if I had stepped from the gates of a golden sea, peaceful and infused with the magic of hope, into a deep pool of life-sucking goo. But somehow today was better. God sent a legion of valiant soldiers to fight for me, even if they didn't know it.
Joy is an elusive prize, but today I felt it briefly. And last week I felt it bubble up inside me like a spring. Funny, in those glorious moments, you feel as if life had always been that beautiful, and never could be anything darker again. I wish I could savor the serenity for longer than a moment. Tomorrow is a new day. But nothing is too big, not even the vast stretch of time that is a single day in this ordinary madness that surrounds me.
This is exactly what I needed to read! I am on an antidepressant and am truly feeling happiness, pretty much, for the first time. I was probably born depressed, and an extreme social phobia crippled me. Now I am feeling happiness, the most unearthly of all emotions. It is so weird! The stress I always burrow inside me just melts away and i am actually laughing! The love I have always felt has amplified into the most beautiful cataclysm one could come up with. It corrupts the ink inside and fills me with living water. Thank you for not dismissing happiness as i have for seventeen years; the world is Hell for those who cannot live.
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