A Song

i lost something special 

on a cold autumn day

kept pushing through life

but it wasn't the same 

a part of me left 

when you looked at me and said

"goodbye, my darling, goodbye" 

and it turned out to be the last time

people called to say 

whatever it is they

always say

the phone kept ringing 

days and days 

but there was only one voice 

i wanted to hear

so i looked out my window 

and whispered in the air  

"hello 

I'm still here waiting 

you said you'd see me

again, God willing

Well He wasn't 

but i just can't say goodbye

so "hello darling, 

how's Heaven tonight?" 

well i can't forget 

but the world don't remember

so i watch them laugh

and soon its December 

all the lights on the tree 

seem dimmer than before 

but it must just be me

and i can't help watching the door

people take pictures 

dancing in the lights 

there's one on my dresser

of us dancing that night

sometimes when no one's watching

i look up at the sky

and say

"hello 

I'm still here waiting 

you said you'd see me

again, God willing

Well He wasn't 

but i just can't say goodbye

so "hello darling, 

how's Heaven tonight?" 

through each year

the world still stays 

wrapped in my fears 

but i learn to laugh again

every time the clock strikes 

11:05 

i stop and wait for just a moment in time

i remember your eyes 

looking at mine

and i say

"hello 

I'm still here waiting 

you said you'd see me

again, God willing

Well He wasn't 

but i just can't say goodbye

so "hello darling, 

how's Heaven tonight?" 

ten Christmases later 

i'm watching the snow

our little girl lays her head on my arm

she's not really little anymore

and she doesn't remember before

she takes my hand

and whispers

"hello

I'm still here waiting 

you said you'd love me 

for the rest of all time 

so, mom, i'm telling you 

he's not coming home; 

can't you say goodbye?" 

later that night

i'm sitting alone

in front of that Christmas tree

humming that song

it used to make me cry

i pull out an old box

wrapped in red paper 

i dust of the top 

and pull out your letters

i smile and i laugh

and tears slip on by

i cry and cry 

when i finally find

that letter you wrote

for the very last time

"Darling, tomorrow we fight

but the real battle's won

because i have your heart 

and there's no one can take it away..." 

So once more I say

"hello

i'm still here waiting 

you've still got my heart 

deep down inside

so don't worry

but darling

i think it's time...

i'll always love you

but I have to say

goodbye

so farewell, my darling,

goodnight"